Affraid to be Alone in NYC

Only one month to go before NYC.

The Last few days were like thunder and rain inside my head, Anger and love/Hate and fair.

I should be happy, I decided to go to Chicago and Las Vegas during my NYC trip. The thing is that i am affraid for the emotions that are about to come.

I will be so NEAR, yet so FAR AWAY from you :(

~ Remember the Sun Rise we use to watch, from our room at the Upper east side? That was like the most beautiful view ever. and the most nicest feeling ever~ Holding on to love~

Unfortainly its the past, and i know that i cannot turn back time, or turn around.... What happened , happened. Hopefully there is a reason why it happend, and hopefully there will be someone like you soon. But till then, you will be close to me, even i know u already forgot about me~

Day 1 of the yentle Blog challenge xD

Day 1: Which newspaper article/news topic caught your attention last week.

The topic that caught my attention on the news are the Dutch elections and of course groups who would like to get your vote. According to my friend Tina there is not one of them who deserved her vote so she is going to vote Blanco, so her vote will be destroyed. She asked me if I wanted to do the same thing but I am still thinking about it, I thank that my vote will go to the Dutch “party van de dieren” Just like last year. They at least do anything for the animals and I think that’s a good thing.
Another topic that caught my attention on the news is that the taxes are going to be raised from 19% on services and items to 21%. You might think its just 2% what is going up, but me as a financial is calculating it for a whole year and according to organisation NIBUD we will all pay € 180 euro more then we did. Yepp it kinda sucks because grocerystore’s are going to raise all of their prices also.
The Crisis is getting all of us, but still we cannot complain. We have food and a roof above our head.

~welp im   just done with training, right now heading to the fruitmarket....bleggg the dentist today sucked..........buhhhhhhh welp nice weekend everyone :D

TGIF

Thank God its Friday

Hello my dear friends, seems like we have made it till the weekend again.
Todays subject is again that we have to learn how to appreciate what we have.

I am trying to learn my parents not to say that life is hard. At this moment my dad already retired and my mom isn’t working. My parents life in a good 5 persons house in a good neighborhood thanks to my dad who saved for his retirement it’s possible. But like we all know is that if you stop working, you are getting less then you already had. Welp maybe its different but u just gotta deal with it. Right now I am writing down my own situation at the house so I hope you guys will learn about it.
Last week I had a discussion with my dad about the fruit that I was bringing home. Like most of my friends know is that I go to the fruit market every weekend located in the heart of my city, you got fruit from all over the world and fresh fish from the sea so no frozen stuff. Anyways my dad was complaining about an mango that was sour, so I told him Thanks a lot right !! on other parts of the world people are suffering from hunger don’t have enough food, are wondering if they even get food for the day or days, and you are complaining about a Mango that’s to sour!!! Because of the color I could see that it was still young and not ripe enough to eat but that’s not where its all about.
Yesterday I told my mom also on a nice way to shut up saying life is hard!! Life is not hard when you have a rooftop above your head, you got enough food and your healthy. Yes its easy to say but there are so many other people who are living on the street who got it all worse. My mom told me yes but they don’t have stress, I don’t know how naïf a person can be and I have no idea how she could be like that… I really don’t look like my parents on the inside, yes maybe some standards but not everything.

Hopefully one day they will learn to appreciate what they have, Just appreciate it don’t throw money away like its nothing or water. I am their daughter but enough is enough I cant explain to much to them, and its not like they wane listen anyways.

If you do got parents like mine, please give me advice how I have to deal with it… inbox me or email me , leave a comment or something hahaha… and if not, you guys are just lucky : )
Yeaaaaaah learn to appreciate what you have, so say a prayer before your eating your tonight’s meal… Be thankfull that u got a job doesn’t matter if your just the newspaper deliverer or that u got an office job like me… Just be thankfull !!! how hard is it ???? its not hard….. just try it…and u will appreciate stuff more than before xD..

I hope everyone will have a wonderfull Weekend !!!!!!!! THANK GOD its FRIDAY !!!!!!

~ Pure Love ~

Midnight 14th of August

I guess i finally understand what pure and real love is. The last few weeks were pretty heavy, i dont know why but is has been 4 monts ago that i broke with Kevin and that i have heard from him.

~ Real love is when you love a person more than you love yourself, and that you are willing to do everything to make that person happy no matter what~

I always say, ur gonna something when its gone..and i ment something not a person..... And after everything he did to me, i still miss him.. my best friend my everything..... The person who made me smile in the morning, made feel safe at night... That person who prommised me to stay with me forever... and i believed it..

~ Cheating is like the most disgusting poison ever~ Cheating is when u dont respect for each other...and when that other person is hurt but still willing to forgive , you do not deserve that person..but u got fight for it when its worth it~ 

i must say that i am human from flesh and blood, i will never forgive cheating, ppl who do cheat dont know how much they can hurt someone else.... its hard if you havent been trough it.. its even harder when your soulmate is doing it....

i guess i understand what pure love is and what real love means to me... i still feel it , even if your gone right now.... i know that i have to say goodbye, to everything we have build..but its hard because it was so good to become true..

When its pure love, u wish the other one Good luck, even if the luck isnt with you~


Tonight i will pray for you..my dear.. and i wish you all the best..from the bothem of my heart i do...
445 days ago were perfect times.....to bad its a memmory right now

a verry good one ............................... I will always #Heart you KJF

Culture difference / Harmony

Culture difference / Harmony

When you’re a mixed person with different cultures you are being raised differently than other people do. My mum comes from ASIA ( Indonesia) and my dad is Asian/French and Dutch. I live in the Netherlands where I also have family living on my dads side and one aunt from my mums side.
The family of my dads side is living just like I do, we all go to work, pay our bills and enjoy life when its weekend. Save up some money to go on vacation every year, ( I go more than once a year,but that’s because I still live at home) and that’s it I guess, oh wait we visit each other on Bdays, when someone is giving a party because they are married for so many years and when somebody is passed away. Yepp that’s it !!! the hard and modern lifestyle in the Netherlands. I don’t say that everybody does it in NL but in my family we do, I haven’t spoke to some of my family members for years. Time goes fast and before u know it, it has been 5 years ago that u have talked to each other. Counting down the days till its weekend so we can be happy again.

My family in Jakarta ( Asia) they go to work, when they have job. I got one rich aunt she works for the government and her husband got his own work agency company, her oldest daughter is an actrice, and the other one works at an office and her youngest son still goes to university. Living in a huge mansion, having 3 cars and motors, pretty cool right. The thing is that she also got a younger sister who is living practically in her house or next to her. Her younger sister doesn’t have a job, her husband works sometimes and they got 3 kids, oldest daughter works as an consultancy agent ( that’s a pretty good job up there) and her other 2 daughters are still going to school. The thing is that if her sister is short on money, that she is going to back her sister up no matter what. That’s the asian culture in ASIA ( not in Europe) if you see that your family member got troubles or are short on money you back up on them. In ASIA most people work hard from the morning till the evening,but because they do they still live in harmony and see each other at least 3 times a week. They are happy , not complaining they just live and act like there is nothing wrong.
See it likes this, if in Europe one of my family members would ask me for help, YES I would help them but just for once so they can find a job ASAP and take care of them self. In the Netherlands its everyone on their own, and that’s not the thing that’s happening in Jakarta.
Because of the rule everyone on their own, nobody is seeing each other anymore. everybody is busy with arranging things and their own life, time goes fast and because of that we get old soon, that’s what I think.

Now you guys must be thinking “why the hell did she wrote this” ????? welp the thing is that I am writing this because I am willing to change my lifestyle in many objects, I just don’t know how and when. But I do know that there must be something that has to change. Because I am getting old to soooon……
Ok to be realistic I live in the Netherlands a different culture than in ASIA but what I do think is that they are getting everything out of the day that they could… the maximum of the day is something that they are getting and in NL , I go to work and I go to the gym or I go home and do nothing and that’s not the way how I would like to get old.
I have been thinking about an carrier change, but I am going to do that that also have consequences for my travel life style. Its something to think about very good. I don’t know if I should do it. I would like to make a job from my hobby and my hobby isnt accounting and finance. I love working with make up so being a mac make up artist is awesome if I could become it!!!... it will be fun to go to work and making people happy doing their faces. But it doesn’t pay good like accounting so that also means no more weekend trips outside the country and is that something u can do LE REVE????? My nickname is globetrotter aka world traveler…………..
Pfffff a thing to think about, this story will be continued.

THANK GOD life is not hard!!

 

The moment you think that life is hard, but then you realize that it isn’t.
[ life is hard ] that’s something people often say, people who don’t realize what they really have.

The last time that I said it was in 2007 when something bad happened to me, and today 06-08-12 I almost said it again. Telling or saying that “life is hard” is something selfish but we just don’t realize it when we are saying it.
When you got a rooftop above your head/food/family who care <<< your life isn’t hard!! I live in the Netherlands, a well organized country even when ppl don’t work here they will do fine because of the welfare. People who work of course pay for it but that’s not the point.

We humans complain to much and so do I. I caught myself standing in front of my closet telling myself that I have nothing to wear. People on the other side of the world don’t even have different dresses to wear.

Its hard to realize it in this modern world everything goes automatically, when you go to the grocery store a door automatically opens. When we go to the kitchen and want water we always have water. I got the train who brings me to work, my parents a car when I need one. When I come home there is food, I am getting worried about how I look and if I have to go to the gym while other people are worried about being safe, living in war, are starving and praying for food.

Not every situation is perfect, I had an emotional break down today at the office asking myself why something bad happened to me. 8 planets, 1 universe,204 countries, 809 islands, 7 seas and I had to met that person who made my life a *Hell* Why god, why did it happened why did I had to loose Kev if we were so perfect together. But then again god did open my eyes, we probably didn’t had a future, im still wondering why it happen and it still hurts a lot. I wish things were different and that he was still a part of my life, but there is nothing I can do about the situation. Its over and right now I have to deal with the feelings that I still have left for him, I am not in love with him anymore but I do still love him and care about him. Its mentally torturing me, but when I pray its sucha relief.

Its not hard I can do this and survive this with god with me everything is possible, I have to hold that thought close to me and say that I can do it. Thank you god for everything in my life, thank you god for saving me from a lot of trouble, thank you god for caring about me, thank you God for everything in my life / my health/ my travels/my family and my friends.
Life is not hard, en when you think life is hard pray! Work hard, pray hard and god will take care of the rest.

Even if you doubt about God, think about the oxygen/air you need to breath. We cant see it but we still need it, So as we need GOD.

Please everyone who reads this, take a moment to say thank you and say a prayer for those who doesn’t have much.

GARA RUFA FISH SPA

Gara rufa fish,

Me and my best friend Watson are true SPA lovers, so when we heard about the FISH SPA we decided to give it a shot and try it out. We went to a private Saloon so there was only us at the spa. The treatment was very well and the result was good, Not perfect but good.

Putting  your feet into a bath full of a 100 gara rufa fish does make your feet clean and soft. It tickles a lot and it was a lot of fun to do. The result was not perfect, could be better but it was ok.

Its not a treatment we are going to do every month but more a thing like once in a half year.

Watch and hear me laugh haha